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Reading. [28 Jul 2006|12:38am]
[ mood | exanimate ]

I feel like all I've done recently is read. I don't mind, I guess, but I'm sad that I haven't heard from anyone at that party we went to awhile back.

Though I did finally hear from Miwako. I'm glad -- I was getting worried.

George sold another dress. Well. Paradise Kiss sold another dress, and I'm happy for them. They all deserve it.

I guess I'm not feeling myself lately. Sorry for the scatterbrainedness of this entry... does anyone read this, anyway??

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Summer. [09 Jul 2006|11:52pm]
[ mood | hot ]

It is hot. And I am bored. I don't think I've left the house all day, which is unfortunate, but with the heat being as it is... I just can't find the energy!

Still no call or e-mail from mother. Looks as if things are back to how they were the first time this happened. How frustrating. But I can't back down now. She has to learn that I am serious about my career.

I think I want shaved ice.

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Out of the House. [07 Jul 2006|01:43am]
[ mood | relieved ]

For now, anyway.

I gave up on my mother. I gave up on that household. I'm tired of her changing her mind on how I chose to run my life, and taking it out on me. I'm tired of her dictating who I can see and who I can't see, and her mistreating of my friends (whom she hasn't even met) simply because they go to YazaArts. I'm done.

George offered to let me stay with him for awhile, and I have to say, I was a little apprehensive at first. I don't want to lapse into the perpetual jealousy that was before. Kaori is in England. I will have to learn to accept his mother. I can handle it. And it's only temporary. I've decided that this time I am going to find a flat of my own... I have some money saved up from my shoots. If I can find something reasonable, I should be all set.

Turned down model boy for dinner. Through an e-mail, which was a little heartless of me, but I didn't want to do it in person. That would be awkward.

I got a new dress. Thank you, Johji. :)

P.S. Where is everyone??

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Dinner. [06 Jul 2006|01:16am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

George owes me dinner. And I owe him a week of my undivided attention, away from my mother. We'll see if either happens.

I was asked out to dinner by one of the other male models at a shoot a few days ago. I didn't want to tell George, but he went on the first-wife schpiel and it just ... came out. Of course he wasn't happy. I wasn't happy. I don't like when we get how we did.

I turned down the invite. I have yet to tell said potential date, but I'm not going. I have to find some way to make this work out with George. I've never been interested in anyone else. I don't want there to be anyone else.

Anyway. I just got home from the studio (where was everyone?!), and I am tired. I hope I can get to sleep with all this on my mind. Sorry for this rambling post -- Miwako, we have to talk!

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Happy Berry Summer Line. [16 May 2006|08:39pm]
[ mood | thankful ]

Yesterday was the shoot I very nearly missed. How embarassing!! I showed up just in the nick of time, but I had to run several blocks and by the time I made it to the shoot, I was flushed. And because I woke up late and was in a rush, I was a mess and everyone could tell... luckily Seiji could cover it.

Mikako's new line is incredible, though, and the shoot went really well. The colours are ... well, Happy Berry fans won't be let down, that's all I have to say. The ads are supposed to start appearing in magazines next month, and I heard Zipper wants to do another big spread. I'm so happy things are going so well!

Still, I'm nervous. Many of my recent jobs have been solely for Mikako, and while I am so lucky to have her, I wonder if I shouldn't be expanding my resume some? I'll have to talk to her about it.

Hayasaka, over and out.

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